I got sepsis from tools used over at a dentist.
I went to the dentist feeling fine. Happy that I finally got the work done that I needed. I went out shopping with my mom and had a lovely time.
Around 7PM I started feeling dizzy. I had just flown in from Japan, so I assumed it was jetlag and fell asleep.
I woke up in the middle of the night with a 42 celcius fever and I couldn’t lift my head high enough to puke on the floor, so I puked all over myself, the bed and my lovely concerned dog.
I tried to yell out to my mother but I didn’t even have the strength to do that. Luckily, the sounds of me vomiting was enough to wake her up.
I vomited so much I was vomiting the lining of my stomach as I had no more food left in me. My mother carried me to the car and drove me to the emergency room.
Once arrived at the hospital I was put on the most uncomfortable bed ever and drifted off. I couldn’t stay awake.
That’s when I saw nurses and doctors around me injecting me with things and shouting. I remember thinking that it must be serious if a doctor was shouting, as they usually don’t show panic.
I was lucid enough to laugh internally thinking “Wow.. I must be really sick if I don’t even freak out over all of these injections”
and then it happened, I saw my mom crying and I thought “Holy shit.. this must be for real.”
and as soon as I thought that, I fell asleep. I say asleep, but I died. for exactly 2 minutes. It really feels like falling asleep, but.. for me it was beyond peaceful.
It felt like you didn’t really have to worry about anything anymore and obviously in my case – I didn’t feel sick anymore.
As someone that was once suicidal – this was actually a horribly dangerous feeling as for the first time I got confirmation that dying wasn’t all that scary.
I woke up seven days later in the hospital. It took me another seven to start eating and they told me that I more than likely got sepsis from infected tools at the dentist.
The scariest part was after that happened – I no longer feared dying. So I consciously try to pull myself out of a depression whenever I feel it coming.
But – for whoever is scared that their loved one felt pain in death, I can honestly say – it’s a very peaceful feeling. — Axesta